How can I pull myself away from you?

How can I pull myself away from you? I think about this every waking moment now. I'm almost at the point of no return. I feel as though I'm a junkie...you're an addiction.

When I'm with you, it seems that the world stands still, nothing else matters. I see nothing but your face, your smile, your gaze. I hear nothing but the sound of your voice. The way you talk, the way you laugh, the way you call me by my first name that no one else dare say. I can smell your perfume even while I sleep. I know this because I seldom remember my dreams nowadays. But with you, it is there. Every twist and turn, every detail I can recall. It's like I'm being haunted by your mere presence. You are an enchantress and I have fallen under your spell.

You've found the weakness in my armor. I'm afraid that you now have that weakness in your hands. My heart. You are holding it so tightly it suffocates me and just as I near the point of sure death, you somehow manage to loosen your grip. But as I shy away, you manage to pull me back. You confuse me. It is like playing with fire in a cold winter night...I get too close, I am scorched but if I stray too far, I will surely die. I'm in a situation that I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't...

It's time...I must start now before I cross the point of no return...I can still do this...I know I can...I know I must!